Thursday, November 09, 2006

Great Trip, now nerves 7 5/7th weeks

We had a wonderful trip to NM. Great to see my Aunt & Uncle, I haven't seen them in 3 years. Both my brothers and sis-in-law came up for lunch on Sat. We had a nice lunch then went to a park for a couple hours. Lots of good green chile, but I don't know if I will EVER again find a smothered breakfast burrito with green sauce like Clark's in Alamogordo used to make. Oh, I miss the green sauce of Southern NM!
Lots of nausea in odd moments, which I take to be a WONDERFUL sign. I haven't actually thrown up (sorry, tmi) but I never did with DS either.
I should be over the moon about the heartbeat. In the past 5 pregnancies in 4 years, only twice has there been a heartbeat at 6 weeks. Once was my son, the other was the trisomy 21 (down syndrome) baby who passed at 17 weeks. So I feel like I'm still looking at 50/50 odds of a healthy full-term baby. And that's perhaps optimistic since I am 4 years older than the first loss, 3 yrs older than when my son was born.
December 7th is my next appointment with the Obstetrics specialist and I can have the CVS test at that time. It slightly increases the risk of miscarriage but we had that test with DS and all was well. Optimistically speaking, I should know by December 12th if this baby is genetically ok. That's only 4 weeks from Monday. So why can't I just relax?
Today I have an appt with the nutritionist and I'm hoping she can get me fired up. I really fell off the wagon on the NM trip, and I really need to be as healthy as possible for this baby.
I am keeping my therapy sessions too. I don't know how we can afford all these co-pays. 4x therapy a month, 1x nutritionist, 1x Obstetrician, 1x my regular ob/gyn, 1x my endocrinologist. And I think I'm forgetting somebody! Whatever happened to 1 doctor for EVERYTHING??
I really need to get some work done today. But I would like to leave you with this thought. Why are all the eggs we don't use while we're on the pill wasted? Why can't they be stored up and used in our 40's? I was on the pill for about 10 years, so that's 120 eggs! I only need ONE good egg!

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