Debating Decisions

I am questioning the CVS test again. 1 in 100 causing a m/c (miscarriage) doesn't seem too bad, but the amnio is 1 in 1000. I can't imagine the devastation if I had the CVS, then had a m/c that may have been caused by the CVS, then found out the genes were all normal.
I guess I'm taking my lead from the specialist, Dr. Bill. He would actually perform the test. Since Dr. Bill kept going on about how invasive it was and how the amnio is safer; naturally I was influenced. My reg ob/gyn, Dr. H., tried that on me too, but I reminded him that we had done CVS with Kimo and I knew his wife had done CVS on both their pgs, including twice on one because the first sample didn't grow.
The question always comes down to what would we do with bad results. If you would terminate, the sooner you know the better. I am still not sure. We were so sure in the past, but there is such a range of defects and possibilities.
I must get back to being semi-productive. My day off was wonderful but I didn't get a whole lot accomplished.

So far so good on 1st Trimester Screen

The little bean was kicking and waving up a storm. Good strong heartbeat AND he/she measures right on for our 6/23 due date.
We had some trouble getting him to pose for the Nuchal Translucency measurement which mean a lot of probing around with the transvaginal ultrasound. Can you say - Ow? But got one somewhat clear shot and it was 1.5 which is right in the middle of what they want to see, anything over 2.5 is really pointing towards Downs.
Ultrasound Tech and hubby thought they saw a dangle between the legs, but I missed it. I have a gut feeling it's a boy anyway.
5 days till the hormone work comes back and we'll have a better look at our odds of major chromosonal problems. We will PROBABLY not do CVS and just wait and do an amnio. It will depend on the results on Mon or Tues.
I am very happy with the results so far.
Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers and good wishes, I could really feel them today.

Today's the Big Test!

I am SO anxious! 5 hours to go and I'm about to jump out of my skin.
I am not worried they will find genetic problems, I am worried they will not find a heartbeat.
Da Kane is coming up to go to the appt with me.
Dang root canal is bugging me big time today. Not fun.
Sleep was spotty and much interrupted last night. 1 Phone call - 2 DS nightmares - 2 potty runs and insomnia each time from thinking about today. No wonder my tooth hurts. I have often noted that my pain threshold lowers substantially when I am tired.
I have been thinking about the Wheel of Fortune card below. I have always been extremely lucky. From getting into the newspaper business, to getting moved to Hawaii, to marrying da Kane and having my son. Even moving back from Hawaii to Las Vegas in time for my Mother's final illness was luck. I need to trust that this pregnancy is going to turn out just as it is supposed to.

11 weeks 2 days!

You are The Wheel of Fortune

Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of
intoxication with success

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

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Feeling ok. No painkillers (even ibuprofen) for several days. Questioning if I need this root canal today. Will have a long talk with dentist before he begins.
Level II ultra-sound and possible CVS (kinda like amnio, but done earlier) on Thursday. Hopefully, this appt will put my mind at rest at least for a little while. It has been difficult to get to this point. Still no heartbeat on home doppler, but still many signs of pregnancy.
Up another pound on the scale. Trying not to beat myself up over it, but try to eat according to plan.

Ahhhhhhhh, falling apart!

Gosh, now I have a cold. Very sore throat, headache, earache, sinuses packed and alternately draining and aching. Tooth still hurts.
Yucky, yucky, yucky.
And big, big holiday events weekend planned. I really would like to spend a couple days in bed. But soccer buddies, library, community tree lighting/Santa arrival, church and 4 yr old b-day party all await. Plus I need to get my holiday letter done AND get the rest of the decorations out and put the boxes away!
Let's cross off the baking I hoped to do - just one batch of cookies, but that's a 2-3 hr project I can't afford this weekend.
This morning is espresso cart day and lobby tree trimming at work - so I must run to fit that in along with the actual work.
Nausea keeps coming and going, now I'm not sure if it's the Little Bean or the cold or the tooth!
I was getting pretty stressed about L.B. yesterday and called my ob/gyn's nurse. My new mantra is "no cramping, no bleeding = all is well".